Kuching was a decent place to be in...
Singgahsana was a lifesaver... Don't think I'd have survived that many days if not for the excellent staff and people that I met there...

I was quite affected on the first day that I was there... I remember that I made a phone call to her... was regarding her friend getting married in Melbourne, we were supposed to go... but it was cancelled when she couldn't confirm her leave...

Anyways... the next few days I felt loads better after talking to AM... I found myself reminding myself that she didn't care for me enough... that we didn't have enough in common... that we probably just didn't belong...

in retrospect, I guess I did bend over backwards a little for her... but then again... some of those were things that I did, I probably would have done myself anyways...
*I've been to some phenomenal restaurants over the last year... heh...

I guess I found myself really down today when I got up because I suddenly remembered the times when she'd call me and we would head out for dinner before my night shifts... and then we'd talk alittle more when I got to work...

I still remember how happy I was...
It was hard to try not to smile...

Guess I do miss her alittle...
Deep down inside I hope she does too...
But I don't allow myself to think it too much...
if not at all...

I'm sure this pain will all pass...
and I'll be a happy person again...