Baby... how are you?

I was alittle worried when you said that you lost 4kg... are you partying too hard? do take care of yourself...

I'm losing alittle weight too... but I'm getting along... I'm used to being skinny...

you know... it hurts me when you doubt if i really sent you the wrong message... because it really was an honest mistake... but say what you must because it can only push me further away from you...

truth being... I missed you... and I kinda felt that you missed me too... that you told me about moving to HK (sounded like you wanted to just to be with Ed... almost in spite...) but its okay... I tried my best with you... even if I was too domestic... even if I did try to spend as much time as I possibly could muster to spend with you... it really doesn't matter... All in all I really had a lot of fun with you...

I just pray that you'd never ever look back as I will not be here much longer... because I cannot bear to be here much longer... it hurts too much... to see you waste you life away in jumping around in a club... getting cozy with some random guy you've just met... I cannot handle that kinda situations anymore...

I've realised that that's where you feel alive... that's where you find your worth... but unfortunately... I am not you... and do not feel the same in any ways... I watch the sunset and wait for the sunrise... the simple things that you've tried to understand and appreciate but cannot...

I loved you... and I believe that you've loved me too... unfortunately... the love just wasn't enough... I thank you for trying... I thank you for spending a year of your life with me... I enjoyed every moment with you... throughly...

and now with my very best I set you free...

and along the way... when you are ready...

I wish you love... beyond your wildest dreams...

and joy ever after...