Saturday, July 22, 2006

Bic Runga - Sway

Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes, when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I go, losing my control
I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why I say it's infinitely true
Say you'll stay, don't come and go
Like you do
Sway my way, yeah I need to know
All about you
And there's no cure, and no way to be sure
Why everything's turned inside out
Instilling so much doubt
It makes me so tired - I feel so uninspired
My head is battling with my heart
My logic has been torn apart
And now it all turns sour
Come sweeten every afternoon
It's all because of you
Now it all turns sour, come sweeten every afternoon
It's time to tell you why, I say it's infinitely true
It's all because of you

Thursday, July 06, 2006

update...

she called...
seemed like she wanted to talk...
we talked...
about her appraisal... sharing her joy mostly...
strangely feels so good to be a part of it all...

well...
at least I know that she's still thinking about me...
*smirk*

I miss you baby...

Bittersweet...

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

I think I'm drowning...

Mind's Wandering...

can't get my mind of Louiee...
been trying though... really I have...
distractions... TV... sleep...

tonight got particularly bad...
I got to the extent of imaginating that maybe she met someone new...
*got that one out quick...*

then train of thought led me to think that she dropped me very much the way she dropped the last guy...
from what i remembered she told me... it seemed pretty similar...
she just freaked out one day and that's that...

which is leading me to the next point which i can't get out of my head...
that is to go talk to her about my theory in my last paragraph...
to maybe try to help her handle her issues with commitment...
to round her off and then we're walk into the sunset and live happily ever after...


yet little bits of me know inside that all these are little attempts of just trying to get her back...
that I should not be so lame and needy and just bloody move on...

Trust me... I know that with this entry I'll hate myself more tomm when I read it...
in fact... I'm already hating this entry now...
can't help feel that I was too clingy in the whole thing that caused it all to crumble...


"Cannonball"
Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on
Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little BIT of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer EACH DAY
Still I can't SAY what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer TO ME
So close that I can't see what's going on
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon
Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy'
Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't WANNA scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Float Like a Cannonball...

I want to hold on to whatever little hope that I can still grasp...

yet I am afraid...


-afraid that she will forget...

-afraid that I can not forget...

*Note to self...I have decided to retrospectively update my blog...

Saturday, July 01, 2006

In The Still of The Night...

- is when I am most afraid now...

- is when I feel most alone...

- is when sometimes I wonder why I am so bothered...

- is when I wonder if I really am in love...

- is when I wonder what love encompasses...

- is when I wonder if you really care...

- is when I wonder if you really used to care...

- is when I wonder what would happen if I played it right...

- is when I wonder what would happen if I didn't overwhelm you...

- is when I wonder if you're the one whom got away...

- is when I wonder if i should hold on to whatever little slithers that are still left...

- is when I wonder if what would be if...


yet... does it all matter?

'Feeling needy... maybe it's just because I'm sick...'

face it... there was a communcation breakdown...
you never did try to explain how you felt overwhelmed when I did things the way I did...
I was too tunnel visioned to want to see anything... though I did realise...
no-one in person is to blame...

you tell me to move on...
why?
'because I don't want to waste your time...'
'because I can't stand the pressure of having someone waiting for me...'

baby... it's not for you to choose...
it's actually my time to waste...
I'll decide...

Truth being told... I don't know which way to go now...
though I know that I miss you already...
I really do...
Only thing that is definate that I know is that I may be in love with you...