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I've realised that I've been a lot more negative about things recently... I seem to be complaining about everything... I was pissed off at my old ward... now I'm complaining about my new ward... I seem to never be contented...

when did this start happening...

I really can't remember... I was telling AG that I was losing myself but i just couldn't explain which bit of my that I've lost... I guess now I know one bit of me gone at least...

I've been so distracted recently... I can't even keep a proper converstion long enough... my mind just wanders...

I don't even know why I doing all this skirt chasing... am i just fulfilling some primal part of me that I've let in without evening knowing? I feel childish... all these last postings... am I just seeking all my self-worth in a girl?
I hope not...