Blood...

After some solitude and shopping alone today...
I've come to the conclusion that I am lonely...
I'm missing friends around me...
realised that most my old friends are :
a) pricks who are too caught up with themselves...
b) too busy with work...
c) too busy with partner/ partners...
d) by now hate my guts too much...
e) already dead...

So, I went to donate blood... it felt kinda good to be doing something for some random person in singapore... I wonder if I'd get to administer the blood to one of my patients... heh... twisted...

I messaged her too... she replied after a few hours... I dunno... the replies seem somewhat laboured... maybe I'm just lonely and not truely in love... yea... that's probably it... yet I still want to know in person...

need to excercise...
need to break in my running shoes...
need to....